“We live in a wonderful world that is full of beauty, charm and adventure. There is no end to the adventures we can have if only we seek them with our eyes open.” – Jawaharial Nehru
January is a month that is all about pressure.
Pressure to make goals.
Pressure to improve.
Pressure to make it ‘the best year ever.’
This is what goes through my head most January’s: “blah blah pressure blah blah”. It’s not that I don’t think goal setting is a great idea. For god sakes, I spend a large part of my job helping others set goals for children. I set work goals all the time for myself… But I have come to the realization that the more pressure I feel from outside sources, the more I implode and become useless. I think a healthy amount of stress and pressure is good for productivity, but I haven’t quite figured out what my count out point is. The more others talk about setting goals and improving, the more I want to say ‘fuck it.’ Due to my somewhat people-pleasing nature and need to be all things to all people, I feel the stress and pressure of expectations.
What a big word – expectations. What do you expect of me? I am my own worst enemy. January has been a great month for me to really think about expectations. In 2012 I really moved away from expectations. I worried a lot about how it would affect others and in turn, if it would affect my relationships with others. It has. Obviously. But I feel 100x better. Me. Me me me me…. Letting go really was one of the best things I could have done. I still battle with expectations but I am much more willing to admit defeat and just get on with my day.
Ok enough self reflection, it’s freaking me out.
Quote: Helen Keller
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On a lighter note, I am already planning my summer adventures (isn’t that how we all get through this crazy Canadian weather?!?!).
Do you have plans? What are you doing to run away from these lovely months that drag on and on and on and on…?
Photo: I took this picture on my way back home in August – it is in Lake Superior Provincial Park. It was amazing….